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The silence that pervades all space.... The deep unrelenting silence...

Not only the one in the mourning funeral of a close one's death... Not only the eternal silence of the deaf and dumb... Not only the pregnant silence of unspoken words of an emotional moment... Not just the one that follows the dawning of a bitter understanding of a truth...

But also,

The one that underlies a crowded street... The one that gives a background for the colourful painting of a gaitey crowd in a park or a beach... The one that is an undercurrent in the non cessant sounds of life everywhere... The language of Gaya and the Universe...

This is an unusal kind... It's presence is not felt untill you pay attention and not listen to anything in particular... Untill you just let yourself flow with it... Just be there; present yet not present, visible yet not visible, seeing yet blind, hearing yet deaf, touching yet senseless.... Just be there but not...

In the complete sounds of the mess hall... In all the vessels' clinking, the students' happy laughter, meaningful smiles on their nasty little jokes, their arguments, their hunger and the (dis)satisfaction of food and in the sounds of death of the insects electrocuted adding an ironical buzzzz to the sounds of life that fills the place...

It is a silence that knows no bounds... The omnipresent... The music of life and death... And the imprints of souls and marks of emotions, thoughts and echoes of life left behind and that yet to come... There is the complete realisation of something not understandable... One may give it names or just accept the ignorance, size of him/her and the limits of his/her understanding while floating with the magnificient, all pervading, deep, music of this silence.............!!!

Female Infanticide...

A few days ago I read an article in the Newspaper talking about the problem of Female Infanticide still being heavily prevelant in many places and even having been seen to have had a rise in a few states(the statistics were given in the article). In the various means to eradicate this it mentioned equal property distribution as one, which has been an ongoing problem in itself as only a few states have made "Equal Right to Property" laws. Then it struck me, in INDIA, a country known for its familyhood, closeknit society, culture and sentiments with its tales and epics talking abt how a mother/child sacrfices everything for the other, we are talking abt materialistic wealth to stop a mother/father/relative from killing their own newborn child....!!!

Then i thought, since "money to bring them up, money to educate them, money to get them married" are the basic reasons for female infanticide in almost all cases, obviously, i can't talk sentiments.... For that matter all the problems that we women in India face should not be if we are going to talk sentimemts isn't it?... Neway jus a thought...!

Flashback...!!

Life doesn't seem to be the same at all times... like us. Different situations kindling the different personalities inside us, each having one strong line of emotion- the force, the energy that changes the whole environment, everything around us, people, their views, and hence our reaction to them, that, an emotion again. "Strange" is the word that comes to my mind when I realize the above. Strange but how true…

Now, as I read the above after 3 months or more from my writing it, I can see that I have come really a lot far away from my innocent childhood, ambiguous adolescence to the little matured late teens.

How life and time play a tricky game, making us passionate, pleasing, making us expect, joyous, disappointed, displeasing and teaching us all the way through... Though the civilized mankind has understood all this (or that is what it thinks!!), developing special fields for it called philosophy etc., the truth remains that "the very wise mankind" is still a student, learning the lessons of life, a different one each time and a different one to each person, making it impossible to make an index for the chapters learnt.

Yew!! I seem to be talking big things; I am just 18!

That was 3 years ago. That was the first ever blog i wrote, the one i spoke abt in the "first blog". Its been a real long time since i blogged. Thought i wud start anew with a flashback...!! ;p

internet

I've never been a great internet user... My maximum experience with the internet was limited to browsin a few articles, checking my mails and blogging (ranging in the periodic scale of not often to rarely), period...

And right now..., while blogging this, i'm on the internet, all by myself, searching a few academic stuff, logged on to a radio station, listening to nice music, blogging and doin a lot of stuff i never thought i wud... This is something very common to most of the people but for a person from a remote place like mine it's somethim cool...

It's really nice to be completely independent and work on somethin u like... Lifestyle is totally changin... But one thing... The technological sofistications r makin this generation lazy...

V know v can get stuff done in a short time... So, v don hav to get up early, or stand in a long Q or anything like that which was almost an everyday affair in our parent's time... I'm not bein conservative... Even i'm one of this generation's technology-made-lazies.... Jus a thought...

Neways gotta get back to work...

Goin to chennai....!!!

I'm so happy... My father today actually gave his nod for me to go to chennai this time during the 5 days hols comin up in August.... V r a big group of friends planning to go...

I've always wanned to go somewhere with friends, hang around, freak out have fun and all... I'm actually gonna do that this time... I've been givin no for an answer for a long time now to all my friends, whenever they called me to their places... I'm happy I'm finally goin...

Plannin to go to the beach, MGM, shop around and hav good NV which I won get to eat otherwise:-)

Thanks dad.....!!! "kash mera bhi koi bf hota" ;-)
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Campus Placement

Its my third year now... Companies will start coming for campus recruitment from the next semester... Kinda excited and scared at the same time... Need to increase my Grade Point average... Need to increase my apti skills and vocabulary... I actually have plans of going into, u know, core bioinformatics... But for now i need to get placed in a good company, even if it is IT.. Gotta get independent.. Help pay back my educational loan...

May b i'll do some studying side by side wen i work... Try doin something so that i can really go deep into my field...

Lots of IT companies r coming to our college.. But only a very few Bio related companies... Many of my seniors hav gotten into good Pharmaceutical companies through Off Campus Recruitments though... Our staff r telling us that there r chances of Astra Zeneca and Johnson and Johnson coming... It'll b really cool if that's gonna happen... Let's c...

Record Work!!!

"OOf!!! Kitna kam karne ko denge yar!!" So much work to do... Job results, print outs, binding and on and on.... Our bioinformatics lab is buzzing with all students from 2nd years to M-tech students... You cannot find one system to work on.. Had to bunk classes to complete the record works. Donno wat to do.. Even right now i'm waiting for my job result i.e., my exercise result.

One thing learnt strongly..."NO PROCRASTINATION HEREAFTER!!!"

Will blog later.. Gotta finish my work.